Road to 60

I will be 60 on August 16…

at exactly 9:10 in the morning.

I’m thrilled about the upcoming new decade. I even talked about it in EPISODE 11 of Radio FaceBoo; recorded on July 31 — a saturday night — I went on and on, saying how exciting it is for me to be turning 60… that I’m finally at ease with the thought of being the clown-without-a-costume that I’ve always known myself to be in my heart and soul.

On the eve of stepping into August, I was possessed with an urgent need to clear up space for change. And so it was that I started to demolish my bedroom.

You see, I’ve been sleeping in my living room — in my big comfortable recliner arm chair — since last September. This means I wasn’t using my bedroom anymore so might as well get rid of my queen-size bed (with its rock-hard mattress) and other pieces of furniture that took up space and blocked the good chi.

A longtime friend of mine offered to take the bed off my hands and was happy to inherit the vanity which belonged to my mom.

My huge trunk is destined to hold a special function in what will become the Giggle Theatre. For this to happen, I cleared my office of all ITS furniture as well — I’ll keep you posted on this work in progress.

As for the wicker table, the rococo lamp, and the guardian angel, they’ll probably end up in my kitchen — “to be continued.”

So that’s what happened on July 31.

I’ll be back very soon with my account
of the first days of August — woo hoo hoo!

Coffee on the Tim Hortons Express

Arrived at Tim Hortons at 8:40 yesterday morning. Lucky me, my favourite table was free: once seated, one has a splendid view of the traffic in the parking lot and the smokers around the trash can.

The person or people before me had pulled down the shade so as not to fry in the burning sun. I don’t know why, I guess it’s because the shade was drawn and this gave the huge window a more intimate look, but all of a sudden I had the feeling I was on a train.

At first, we were on our way to Vancouver — it’s always been a dream of mine to go there. Ten minutes later, I changed the itinerary: we would instead be traveling across the maritime provinces right through to  Cabot Trail, Nova Scotia — all aboard!

Dear …..(your name)….. ,

Having a GREAT time!!!
Wish you were here…

Hugs & Love,
Mudd
xoxo

I needed a coach…

Yes indeed, ladies and gents, lately I was thinking that maybe I needed a coach, and lo and behold, Maia Berens, whom I met on Twitter, dropped into my email box yesterday to tell me a spot was ready for me on her All About Life Coaching forum and that I should click myself over there and update my profile.

I did just that.
(Here I am on the train, on my way to Maia’s site.)

So now I’m on Week 1:
Monitor Your Mood

Here’s the opening paragraph to my brand new experience (I know what some of you are thinking: We’ll see how long this one lasts):

This is the beginning of your All About Life Journaling experience. This is the week where you begin to take notice of the existing state of your mind, your body, your emotional state. This is where you really begin looking at you.

For My new Goal or Action to take, I chose:
Don’t think.
FOCUS!

As for On a scale of 1 – 10, with 10 being extremely happy, rate how you feel overall in your life today, my answer was originally split between:
MENTALLY/EMOTIONALLY = 10
FINANCIALLY = 1

I entered 10 for “mentally/emotionally” because I don’t hate myself anymore. Unfortunately, it took me so long to not hate myself that I ended up losing my financial independence. Thus the “financially 1.”

What makes my present situation even more challenging — apart from my lack of cash — is the fact that I’ll be 59 in August, that I feel as though I’m straight out of prison or a fifteen-year coma, and that all I dream about is escaping this housing co-op I’ve been living in (committed to) for 27 years and being on the road. I constantly ache to see new places; meet new people; travel through Canada; the States; then go further South and discover a different world. I want to explore… to explode!

So I figure I’m an OVERALL 7.
Once I’m on the road,
I’ll be a 10 and rising!

Again, I know I’ve been jumping from one thing to another ever since I began to blog, but that’s my handicap: I start a lot of things but rarely finish any of them.

Barbara Sher refers to us as scanners. I bought her book, REFUSE to CHOOSE!, on May 17, 2006 (I always write the date on the first page of every book I buy).

This is what it’s all about:

Are you a Scanner?

“I’m fascinated by something new every week!”
“I can’t commit to anything — I’m afraid I’ll miss something better!”
“I start so many things but finish almost none of them.”
“I know I should focus on one thing, but which one?”

If you’ve thought these things, chances are you’re a Scanner, a very special kind of thinker. Unlike people who are satisfied with one area of interest, you’re genetically wired to pursue many areas, and that’s exactly what you’ve been trying to do. But because your behavior is unfamiliar — even unsettling — to the people around you, you’ve been taught that you’re doing something wrong and told you must decide on one path.

But this advice has been a big mistake. You’ve been misdiagnosed. You’re not a failed specialist, you’re a different creature altogether.

The book made me understand my “condition” and made me feel happy that I’m not alone. Still… I AM alone at the moment. In a way, I’m sort of stuck between life and death — and I make this observation in a very positive way. I swear. Cross my heart and hope to die (laughing out loud and slapping my thigh).

All this to say that I’m glad Maia Berens dropped into my life.
Could it be that the Law of Attraction is working its magic?

To be continued… (I hope!)

P.S.: I was about to publish my post when I checked my emails. Here’s what I received from TUT (A Note from the Universe), proof that I’m on the right track with all my dreams:

The baby steps in the beginning of a journey always seem inadequate compared to the brilliance of the dream that inspired them. This is natural. If the dream wasn’t so far “out there” and dazzling, it wouldn’t be worth dreaming! Just don’t be led to think that the physical ground you cover with your baby steps is all that they accomplish. Because for every mortal step you take, another cog in a giant wheel behind the curtains of time and space advances, and with it, 10,000 new possibilities.

Better than Star Trek,
The Universe

Cool, eh?